A Servant's heart.

Well, this is my first blog entry--ever! I know, I'm slow getting on the bandwagon! I read other people's blogs and they seem, well, so motivating, interesting, and encouraging.

I don't promise that mine will be anything like that, it's just me expressing my feelings.

Last night at church our Pastor gave a good reminder of what we should be as church members. One thing he said stuck out to me---have a servant's heart! I want to, but why is it so hard sometimes?

Is it because we are selfish? Or is it because of pride? What is it that makes it so hard to have a servant's heart? He also asked us to raise our hands if we could think of anyone that had a servant's heart--I could, but it was definitely not me. I want to be like those people who selflessly give of their time and resources to help others, who don't get so caught up in being "good" themselves, or being better than others. I don't want to have selfishness or pride, I don't want to look down on others for silly reasons, so I'm working on this and praying about it that I, too, will begin to have a servant's heart.

For example, last night I was supposed to sing a solo at church. For weeks before singing I struggled with feelings that I wish I didn't have. I think things such as: I want to sound like the best singer in the church, I want to make a good impression, I want people to think I'm great! UGH!!! Then I get tired of feeling that way. I should be thinking things such as: I want God to use the talents HE's given me to minister to someone, I want GOD to make an impression on someone. Why do I have to be so selfsih? If it weren't for God I wouldn't even be able to sing, so I need to be much more thankful for the talents and abilities He's given to me and then work on using them with a servant's heart, not a selfish one.